So so snappy, Woe woe “terrible is me” maybe not at anything particular or specific. Just been living my life, day through day. Trying to avoid all of my addictions, vices; although continually swapping them off (at times – undetectible) ‘But I know.’ I’ve made 3 meetings in the past week, still yet to decide on a sobriety date/clean date. But, meh.. I’ll press on forward. Life on Life’s Terms currently is debiitating whilst I navigate myself through marginal displacement “on the streets” Subsequently I delve and dabble into marijuana + alcohol to crutch myself, cigarettes are a most definite ‘goto’ but Cest La Vie!
Although it’s maybe an entire three days of neither of the two, I did grab some weed to attempt sociaoization. 1-2 meetings don’t do it for me – although maybe it should 😉
I’ve been around the rooms 23 years, my longest stretch of abosolute sobriety was 2.5 years. Yesterday I’d turned 39. It was honestly unexciting and unimportant, but I am overjoyed to try to put myeslf to the test once again. It’s a geographical struggle at this moment, especially since the legalization of marijuana in Canada. (However long ago that was.)
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